Blog Archives - SOREN MICHAEL GILLASPY

Act 1

6/27/2020

I've been writing. Not as much as I think I should be if I'm trying to get this done. Honestly, writing the last couple of posts pressured me to read and compile more, less than write more. But, but I did end up writing. And I wrote more on this draft of the script. I know where it goes, and have a few drafts of one or two scenes in the second act. This is just the first act. Sometimes I'm ashamed of my writing style: it appears to be less professional like Steven King, and more amateur. I don't like the word amateur. This script is a little revolutionary, but I'm doing what I can to make sure that all characters are likable to a certain extent. I also am trying to leave the roles open for as many people to be able to play them as possible, without gender or racial restrictions. I may get rid of the foreign language pieces, as they don't seem to be doing much besides emphasize the multi-cultural aspect of the Catedral. I feel like I am too rigid in my idea of where this goes, but I also believe I've let it change so much over the last couple of years that it is basically an entirely different script - just with similar plot lines. If there is anything that interests you most about it, please let me know. If you have questions about a situation or character, the same thing goes.

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Megaliths and Mutual Measures

6/14/2020

I’ve been thinking about megalithic structures - mostly structures in the Middle East. Many of which have unfortunately been destroyed. Thankfully not Petra or Baalbek. What is it that enabled stone age people to build something like that? Baalbek was inhabited before 5,000 BCE. The largest blocks weigh one thousand six hundred and fifty tons. Even Gobekli Tepe was abandoned even earlier, back around 10,000 BCE. It wasn’t built then, it was abandoned. At that time, cuneiform didn’t even exist. There weren’t even copper tools. We probably don’t have the faith to unite to build something like that today in our modern, secular, capitalist environment.

Faith does seem to be an inspiration for these massive structures. Most structures from the Great Pyramid to the ancient Indian temples had a religious purpose. Even Petra was the original pilgrimage site for some progenitors of the Islamic faith. The Cathedrals, which I offer as the most beautiful architecture of the European culture, are buildings of pure faith.

Some of you might be screaming about Rome, the Great Wall of China, or various castles around the world. If faith is something that you believe in regardless of evidence, and worship is paid through rituals to an authority external to oneself, then one can worship a secular authority just the same as a spiritual. And authority is not benevolent by prerequisite before it has what feels like an omnipotent impact in one’s life. Paying taxes could be a secular ritual with faith that the taxes are used as we the citizens deem fit.

Perhaps it is the centralization of objectives that allowed for these monuments to be built. Well, that and slavery, in many cases. It’s funny, we value the creations that are spawned from something that even a child would see immediately as an evil. And would be right, even if civilization might not have advanced as rapidly as it did. “Because of its universal distribution the collective psyche, which is still so close to the small child, perceives not only the background of the parents, but, ranging further afield, the depths of good and evil in the human soul. The unconscious psyche of the child is truly limitless in extent and of incalculable age.” (Jung, Introduction to Wicke’s “Analyse Der Kinderseele”) It’s interesting to me, how children know good and evil, fair and unfair. Adulthood seems to entail a rationalization of evil in the interest of “the Greater Good.”

In the evolution of faith, honestly it is typically not a benevolent deity to begin with. One first wants to avoid pain and death, and continues to pray for safety from predators, not just a good harvest to avoid famine, or to avoid consequences of a natural disaster. This keeps all the diverse deities alive for now. “Religion always begins with fear, and the religion of savages may directly be defined as ‘the fear of evil and the various efforts made to escape evil.’ Though the fear of evil in the religions of civilized nations plays no longer so prominent a part, we yet learn through historical investigations that at an early stage of their development almost all worship was paid to the powers of evil, who were regarded with special awe and reverence.” (Paul Carus, The History of the Devil, pg 14) Gods and demons were incredibly interlinked throughout humanities existence, as can be witnessed in witch burnings as well as the evolution of ancient deities like Baal, El, Jupiter, and Aten. Always the protection and advancement of one’s personal tribe was deemed good, even and occasionally especially at the expense of neighboring powers.

The Pharaoh of Egypt was meant to preserve divine will on Earth (maat), which worked out well for him and his priests. This focused will of the people who followed maat is almost certainly a contributory factor in the construction of things like the Pyramid at Giza. I’m slightly amazed at how this loyalty persisted through changing dynasties like Narmer or the Hyksos invasions. But perhaps the ancient faiths had a more honest understanding of human nature than some modern ones. “Still, no matter what form the gods of Egypt took, they were, like the gods of Mesopotamia, always described in human terms, with human impulses, human desires, and human instincts. Even when the gods were portrayed as animals in Egyptian art and literature, they were still given human traits and behavior; they were still depicted as taking part in human activities. They ate, drank, and slept like humans. They argued with each other and fought over petty jealousies. They had family problems. They displayed good and bad moods. They could be all knowing or just plain stupid.” (Reza Aslan, God: A Human History, pg 80) If your authority truly has a boot on your neck, do you have time to struggle or is another sunrise and a cup of fermented barley worth the indignity presented by the slave driver? It’s far easier to accept the authority that exists than dream and reach for a new one. Especially if an omnipotent and omnipresent force may crush you if you try.

Theoretically the whole idea of rulership and loyalty is that it is supposed to inspire a sense of responsibility toward those who are governed. This was the case with kings and queens, with the Emperors of times past, and certainly with representatives today. These authorities in exchange with that loyalty provide protection and various services as deemed appropriate. Those provided in recent decades are more robust than in centuries past, courtesy of the exponential growth of various rights. Thank the Leviathan for such blessings. “How came this creation so magically woven that nothing can do me mischief but myself, – that an invisible fence surrounds my being which screens me from all harm that I will to resist? If I will stand upright, the creation cannot bend me. But if I violate myself, if I commit a crime, the lightning loiters by the speed of retribution, and every act is not hereafter but instantaneously rewarded according to its quality. Virtue is the adopting of this dictate of the universal mind by the individual will. Character is the habit of this obedience, and Religion is the accompanying emotion, the emotion of reverence which the presence of the universal mind ever excites in the individual.” (Emerson, The Sovereignty of Ethics) Sometimes the wait time for police or bureaucracy can put a damper on this religion. Imagine the paperwork that would be required for a Great Wall of China or Coliseum today!

Clearly there are more benefits to working together than separate. Cathedrals certainly weren’t built by a single person. Most homes aren’t built by people of a single skillset. We share and work together to build anything long lasting, not just megalithic monuments. “By the conjunction of forces our power is augmented; by the partition of employments our ability increases; and by mutual succor we are less exposed to fortune and accidents. It is by this additional force, ability, and security, that society becomes advantageous.” (David Hume, Treatsie of Human Nature, Book III, Part II, Section II) Finding the means to make society willingly unite is a trick politicians have been working at since Athenians and Spartans were throwing spears at each other.

Often it takes an enemy to get people to unite, but that’s cynical and Machiavellian. It pits the species against itself, which doesn’t seem like a valuable direction for any species that wants to thrive. Cannot the urge to life be a uniting force just as much as the urge to death? Restricting people to insiders or outsiders seems a way to create strife and conflict, not to unite. “Totem, tribal, racial, and aggressively missionizing cults represent only partial solutions of the psychological problem of subduing hate by love; they only partially initiate. Ego is not annihilated in them; rather, it is enlarged; instead of thinking only of himself, the individual becomes dedicated to the whole of his society. The rest of the world meanwhile (that is to say, by far the greater portion of mankind) is left outside the sphere of his sympathy and protection because outside the sphere of the protection of his god. And there takes place, then, that dramatic divorce of the two principles of love and hate which the pages of history so bountifully illustrate. Instead of cleaning his own heart the zealot tries to clear the world. The laws of the City of God are applied only to his in-group (tribe, church, nation, class, or what not) while the fire of a perpetual holy war is hurled (with good conscience, and indeed a sense of pious service) against whatever uncircumcised, barbarian, heathen, ‘native,’ or alien people happens to occupy the position of neighbor.” (Campbell, The Hero with 1000 Faces, pg 156) Yet, what happens to the resources of the City of God run out sustaining the rest of the world within the well meaning sphere of sympathy of protection? Sometimes tribal, societal, or familial loyalties have material restrictions that supersede the spiritual. One hopes the spiritual are not entirely lost in that hierarchy.

Hierarchies come into being for a purpose. A skill is valued and leads to the benefit of all community members. This could be skill in hunting, firemaking, or delegation and negotiation. As with all growth and creation of a society, the primary focus is on the survival of that group. David Hume noted that centuries ago when he was considering the relationship between human society and human nature. “For besides that nothing is more essential to public interest than the preservation of public liberty, it is evident that if such a mixed government be once supposed to be established, every part of member of the constitution must have a right of self-defense and of maintaining its ancient bounds against the encroachment of every other authority. As matter would have been created in vain, were it deprived of a power of resistance, without which no part of it could preserve a distinct existence, and the whole might be crowded up into a single point; so it is a gross absurdity to suppose in any government a right without a remedy, or allow that the supreme power is shared with the people without allowing that it is lawful for them to defend their share against every invader.” (David Hume, Treatsie of Human Nature, Book III, Part II, Section X) There is always a balance between liberty and society. Anarchy appears to reign on one hand, with mob rule enforced (following the root meaning of that word) upon the community they find themselves in. And on the other, such suffocating oppression that famine and prison for thought-crime exists. And all societies require basic rules to function with anything approximating justice. When broken, citizens have faith that consequences will be met out. “We have now run over the three fundamental laws of nature, that of the stability of possession, of its transference by consent and of the performance of promises. It is on the strict observance of those three laws that the peace and security of human society entirely depend; nor is there any possibility of establishing a good correspondence among men, where these are neglected. Society is absolutely necessary for the well-being of men; and these are as necessary to the support of society.” (David Hume, Treatsie of Human Nature, Book III, Part II, Section VI) The Ubaidians developed clay tablets for bookkeeping debts before they irrigating the Tigris and Euphrates or build weapons of obsidian. Debts and property are the foundation of society.
Without Gods to trust deliverance of Karma in the afterlife, known injustice is difficult to stomach today. When there is one rule of law for the average citizen, and a way to post bail and help an understanding to be reached, the symbol of justice is tarnished. “There can be no question: the psychological dangers trough which earlier generations were guided by the symbols and spiritual exercises of their mythological and religious inheritance, we today (in so far as we are unbeliever, or, if believers, in so far as our inherited beliefs fair to represent the real problems of contemporary life) must face alone, or, at best, with only tentative, impromptu, and often not very effective guidance. This is our problem as modern, ‘enlightened’ individuals, for whom all gods and devils have been rationalized out of existence.” (Campbell, The Hero with 1000 Faces, pg 104)

One way to look at this conundrum is with fear or sorrow. Or instead it could be an opportunity to make oneself into one who has fulfilled one’s potential in the here and now. Things in the past that detrimentally affect your present could be considered in economics as “sunk costs.” They already have been paid, you can’t bemoan your fate. What is your potential from today, what could be done better to make your society function for the well-being of your community? “By virtue of its indefinite extension the unconscious might be compared to the sea, while consciousness is like an island rising out of its midst. This comparison, however, must not be pushed too far; for the relation of conscious to unconscious is essentially different from that of an island to the sea. It is not in any sense a stable relationship, but a ceaseless welling-up, a constant shifting of content; for, like the conscious, the unconscious is never at rest, never stagnant. It lives and works in a state of perpetual interaction with the conscious.” (Jung, Child Development and Education) Jung seems to believe that symbols can be changed, which can change the way we behave in life with each other. Certainly all of the aspects have a light and dark aspect. A Dark Father figure, and Light Mother figure. The Trickster can be either Satan or Prometheus. As sometimes I hear, there is no dawn without dusk.

Life and Authority

6/1/2020

If I believe what I read online, it occasionally feels like the country is debating whether the American experiment should come to an end. There are burning homes, police stations, even the sacred capitalist temple, Target. And truly, I would have thought the horror could never get worse than with Tamir Rice. Not even a minute goes by after officers arrive on the scene before a child is murdered for having an airsoft gun. At least George Floyd got to experience his life, albeit more briefly than warranted. Warrants, now aren’t those starting to seem like a foreign concept? But never fear, the Bill of Rights is merely an old list on a piece of parchment. In fact, since our rights as humans are just granted by the Leviathan our Founding Fathers created in the place of the monarchy, they can be taken away by that same governing body. They are conditional, and change with the times, right?

I think not. Lives are lost, rights are eroded, and a standing army is placed on the American soil to protect a nation-state with no respect for the best interests of her citizens. We are told that this is for our safety, as we have 12,000 to 15,000 deaths on a yearly basis from gun violence. A big number indeed, especially when one considers that 600 or 700 are children younger than 11. But in the grand scheme of things, you are far more likely to die of heart disease or a traffic accident in the obese yet constantly moving society we live in. And so, while we pay attention to the coronavirus or the last interracial homicide by police, the nation is looted by banks, politicians, and their billionaire friends who have been cut a cheque, in order to stimulate the economy. There always is enough money to prevent lost jobs and to build bombs, but never (so it seems) to feed, house, and care for people with dignity and grace.

“The minority of people who own and control our economic system have some such differences among themselves, but they often find ways to tolerate them, especially if such unity allows them to work together to protect their economic and political power. This powerful elite has also proved quite adept at nurturing deep and multiple antagonisms around such differences among various sectors of the working class: ‘Divide and conquer!’” - The Third American Revolution: How Socialism Can Come to the United States, Paul Le Blanc

As power consolidates, so too do the interests of the powerful. This consolidation can be seen in the complete dominance of companies including Jeff Bezos’ Amazon. Amazon is already a more essential business than the small local stores frantically trying to offer competition. Eventually Amazon will be guaranteed a bailout just like the Bank of America, to save the GDP. And yet, we the people are to be grateful to get farm subsidies in the way of SNAP, or cronied subsidies by means of welfare for specific low income housing. People in power have determined that never shall the dirty underclass be permitted a bottom up stimulus to replace the social safety net designed with a paternalist instinct. Those representatives seem to believe that the average citizen would use a free market stimulus far more unwisely than a large corporation’s senior executives would use an interest free loan.

Occasionally, I find it peculiar how evil socialism has become as a word. Of course, historically nationalization of an economy has resulted in famine or other destruction everywhere from Venezuela to the USSR to China. Yet it appears that socialism is reasonable in the hallowed land of the United States of America, at least in order to financially support and protect the property of individuals who have proven themselves superior under the watchful eyes of the dear representatives of our free market system. We lowly citizens should behave graciously due to the employment we have been granted to provide for our food and shelter and maybe, if we are lucky, a trip to the hospital.

Grace is a core aspect of being a warrior which I’m concerned is being lost in the training of the militarized police force we Americans are blessed to have standing by, enforcing our laws. Never mind private property, get inside citizen. Never mind private property, forfeit assets citizen. Should one not comply, light ‘em up. At least that seems to be the attitude of the Minneapolis police seen above. After all, what can the disarmed peasants do anyway? And even if they were armed and organized, we can be grateful for the precedent of drone striking American citizens. Grace, honor, and training. A warrior's job is endless, for you are trusted with not just your life but the lives of those who rely on self-control for the safety of their lives. Perhaps these kind of careers in civil service require the discipline of martial arts.

“As warriors, we have a moral obligation to attend to the cause of honor. We have a responsibility to see that justice is served in any area in which our duty leads us. But right and wrong are not so black and white as the supposed moral paragons would have us believe. And the call of honor does not entitle us to meddle in areas in which we have no business, responsibility, or direct knowledge.
“Our society is addicted to the scent of scandal, and most people eagerly assume the worst when a questionable situation begins to surface. Too often they leap to attack others they think have violated some point of law or morality, without knowing the facts. Of course, when we have direct knowledge of injustice, we have a responsibility to speak out, to right any wrong within our sphere of control. But blindly condemning someone in our own court of opinion isn’t justice, it’s defamation.” - Living the Martial Way, 278, Forrest E. Morgan

It is because we need to know the facts and that right and wrong is not black and white that we have a justice system. The concept of a just justice system is negated if one is to remove any aspect of a trial by a jury of one’s peers, the concept of individual guilt, and the presumption of innocence. Frankly, a removal of life, of any individual’s possibility of reform or increasing the abundance of life around themselves, is the worst crime that can occur. For the police, who are trusted to serve and protect, to remove one's life, is the greatest betrayal. Or perhaps it merely breaks the illusion of the Machiavellian world of power games which may be our moral reality, nihilistic as that seems.

“The devil grows inside the hearts of the selfish and wicked White, brown, yellow and black colored is not restricted” - Dance with the Devil, Immortal Technique

Murder is not a police issue. Most deaths at the hands of police are of white victims, although the black victims are disproportionate to their population. In fact, while hispanic and black victims are 50% more likely to report some kind of force by the police, there is next to no difference between whites and blacks in terms of the more extreme uses of force; interestingly, if one is armed and has an interaction with the police, one is less likely to be shot at if one is black or hispanic as opposed to white, according to the Yale study An Empirical Analysis of Racial Differences in Police Use of Force, by Freyer. However, if unarmed, one is more likely to be shot if black, just as the likelihood of being shot while having a mental health crisis goes up if one happens to be white. Typically it is also an officer of the same ethnicity as the victim, according to Officer Characteristics and Racial Disparities in Fatal Officer-Involved Shootings, by Johnson, Tress, Burkel, Taylor, and Cesario.

Murder in the United States is not a race issue. Most murders occur within one’s own ethnicity, and mostly by high testosterone males. Most of the people you know are within your own ethnicity, and the dominate ethnicity in the United States is still Western European. However, even outside of that, most interracial deaths are from black and hispanics toward whites, or whites toward hispanics (533, 789, and 792, respectively, according to 2016 FBI Crime Statistics). White, what an absurd all encompassing term lumping a diverse mix of groups together, just the same as black is. And yet, there are some pushing a race war? To what end? Divide and conquer?

If the world is nothing but self-interested power games, then all people are probably interested only in benefit for them and theirs. The closest circle would be the individual, then it could widen to family, nation, species, and only then perhaps to intelligent life itself. I like dolphins, elephants, and octopi and wouldn’t ever wish harm upon them. But I do consider the life of a fellow homo sapiens more valuable than that of a dog, who could have been shot by the officer who fired above. If you follow western theology, we ate from the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil, and know what is right and what is wrong. This is not a curse, in my mind. It is an evolution as a species that is necessary to become human beings as opposed to beasts. If people only react and obey, we live in a state of nature, which was once described as nasty, brutish, and short. If, however, we aspire to unite the moral soul with the intellectual will, we can create something beautiful.

“The Greeks called it Psyche, a manifest emblem of the soul. The man down in Nature occupies himself in guarding, in feeding, in warming and multiplying his body, and, as long as he knows no more, we justify him ; but presently a mystic change is wrought, a new perception opens, and he is made a citizen of the world of souls : he feels what is called duty; he is aware that he owes a higher allegiance to do and live as a good member of this universe. In the measure in which he has this sense he is a man, rises to the universal life. The high intellect is absolutely at one with moral nature.” - Sovereignty of Ethics, Ralph Waldo Emerson

To what do we owe allegiance? I would posit that allegiance is owed only to ideas, and only to those who have earned the respect that the idea conjures. Even from those individuals, it is only through the beliefs that they put in their subjects minds that grant them power. I am reminded of an idiom, that power corrupts, and absolute power corrupts absolutely. If that is the case, is not any blanket allegiance a recipe for tyranny, at the very least considering corrupt administrators and time? Is not raising someone up on high with the expectation that this man can solve all wants and needs a form of idol worship and god creation? This seems like one of the primary issues with an abdication of personal responsibility and morality to any centralized power, be it state, corporate, or our impending AI - which itself has racist tendencies.

The loyalty of all creatures is first and foremost to the young. If one cannot propagate, the whole line vanishes, not just oneself. Then it is to the mother, who can bear more. Outside of that, loyalty is to the species. Bestial nature has limited and savage loyalties, and humanity could aspire to more. At the very least, without a healthy ecosystem how can anything thrive? Eventually, as we populate the planet at our exponential rate, we will look at the land used for graves, and have to consider what the soul would miss on this mortal plane. An abundance of life, perhaps life similar to my nephew, would be something my soul would miss. So my allegiance would be first to preserving life, if I approached life morally.

“The intermediate term is obvious - the refusal to grow old. At the biological level, organisms live their lives and have no history because living and dying, that is to say growing older, is in them an inseparable unity. With them, in Shakespeare’s beautiful phrase, ripeness is all. At the human level, repression produces the unconscious fixation to the infantile past, the instinctual unity of living and dying is disrupted, and both the life instinct and the death instinct are forced into repression. At the illogical level, the death instinct in affirming the road to death, affirms at the same time the road of life: ripeness is all. At the human level, the repressed death instinct cannot affirm life by affirming death; life, being repressed, cannot affirm death and therefore must fly from death; death can only affirm itself (and life) by transforming itself into the force which always dies life, the spirit of Goethe’s Mephistopheles.” - Life Against Death, 104, Norman O. Brown

We all (even Buddhists who claim that life is suffering) mourn the loss of a loved one. It is still inevitable, and sometimes the loss isn’t as painful later in life as it is when cut short when one is ripe, when one has life ahead and potential to grow and improve. It is when we see that loss of control that we try to take control of the life we see play out before our senses that we affirm destruction, or death. When our own life is destroyed somehow - having a loved one ripped from it or otherwise having the foundations of our life shaken - we feel a need to assert control.

“Then Freud’s equivocation with three forms of death - the Nirvana-principle, the repetition-compulsion, and the sado-masochistic complex - turns out to be profoundly suggestive. Man is the animal which has separated into conflicting opposites the biological unity of life and death, and has then subjected the conflicting opposites to repression. The destruction of the biological unity of life and death transforms the Nirvana-principle into the pleasure-principle, transforms the repetition-compulsion into a fixation to the infantile past, and transforms the death instinct into an aggressive principle of negativity. And all three of these specifically human characteristics - the pleasure-principle, the fixation to the past, and the aggressive negativism - are aspects of the characteristically human mode of being, historical time.” - Life Against Death, 105, Norman O. Brown

All of these principles, compulsions, and complexes are drives toward order in one’s own life. In a chaotic world, this drive never ends. The nirvana-principle, a desire for stability, never disappears until death. Life is ever in flux, and as such some ride the highs for as long as they can, numbing themselves from the ups and downs to maintain a cloudy, high, status. Which can lead to an addiction. After all, why live in the world when this other one remains at least that little bit better, where I don’t think about those who are lost from my life?

I believe that everyone has repeated a moment time and time again to try and discover how a tragedy could be prevented. But if the same action does not have the desired impact, is it not insanity to continue? And yet some persist, too frantic in the moment to attempt to change course, or perhaps too proud to admit fault. Even in keening, the repetition of rocking seem to be reaching back to being rocked by a mother. Perhaps we all desire a return to a more innocent time in life.

To conclude on the violence that we see in the world today, I would like to address aggressive negativity - which assumes that all acts of aggression are a manifestation of the death instinct. All acts of aggression are an attempt to wipe something out, or stop it from occurring. Yet, sometimes this is also an attempt to stop the end of that which is close. In this we see the cyclical nature of violence. As I get revenge for the murder of my beloved, I kill another’s beloved, which could inspire someone close to them to kill me in return. The intent was to preserve a memory or to protect a soul close to my own, but it always results in a loss. Sometimes the losses never end. It’s seems like an obvious moral belief to me to believe that death is to be mourned, and that as much life as possible should be preserved. Rage is what I feel both with the deaths on the news and the deaths that aren't reported on CNN, because they don't fit the daily narrative, but not as much as when a child is murdered. Yet, peace is proper, is it not? Poets have more skill with words than I, and my scattered thoughts are impossible to wrangle on this subject.

Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night, Dylan Thomas
Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.