I’ve been having a writer's block for, well, it feels like years. I have drafts I’ve worked on. Mostly on a single play I’ve played with since Shakespeare, which is the verbiage Rhonda would suggest for me. Still, it’s nothing with a complete arc, beginning middle and end. So I’d say that’s a block. I mean, I’ve plotted it out, I have the key events I know it needs to have happen. It will make them happen.

​Anyway, this isn’t about… well you see, my play has already broken from some of those. Many of those. Characters have changed roles, bombings have shifted locations (yes I know we’ve been told write what you know but action sells), characters have become gender neutral, religions have changed, so have heroes. But it needs to have the events happen! At this point, what do I have?

Anyway this isn’t about balderdash. Honestly, even if some if it is worthwhile, some of it is always shit. And occasionally, totally absolutely and completely not worth putting “pen to paper,” as they say. Who even dreamt up that idiom? Google doesn’t know, as I discovered putting “fingers to keys.” Google, which apparently has become the Oracle of old. Or Wikipedia through them, or whatever news shows up at the top of your search. Isn’t it amazing how much you can find on the internet?

Anyway, this isn’t about balderdash, hopefully. Kierkegaard bothered me when I first read him. Or rather the single book of his I have (alas), Fear and Trembling. When I first tried him a long time ago, I had a problem accepting the faith of Abraham in the instance of Isaac. The faith required for something like that seemed barbaric to me. Would you sacrifice your own flesh and blood based on voices that you are hearing, but no one else can? These days we expect to lock people like that up.

​Anyway this isn’t about balderdash, hopefully truth. Kierkegaard seems to me to lay out a true path toward the way one lives a Good life, whatever that virtue entails. I expect it comes from the word God, or at least that’s the connection my instincts lean. So, potentially, there are quite a few directions one could take with that. Understand that mine is a universally agnostic point of view, but I’ve been wrong before and will be wrong again. Look at the Law of Conservation of Energy.

Anyway this isn’t about balderdash, hopefully truth combined. You see, Kierkegaard advocated functioning as though one must believe that a specific goal is to be inspired toward, and that one must make oneself worthy to achieve it. I’m thinking of when he writes about knights of faith, and their strength of surrender to the particular and the universal. This is in that one may only act in the particular, but must know that the universal of that which one has faith in is a Good more valuable than that of the temporary desires of the present.

I’ve been having a writer's block, and I’ve been trying to break it, and I’ve been told twice in the last week to start a blog. So, yes I guess this is my blog, which is probably full of balderdash, hopefully truth combined. If I write at least a few words a week, maybe the habit can be expanded again. That worked with fitness, music, and a couple other habits I picked up while trying to lose a few others. I am intending to produce another show when I can, with the permissions of my (perhaps) anarcho-commune that I seem to have been guided into which is about peace, universalism, and nuclear negotiations during the Cold War. But that’s for a later day.